Hey Everyone! I apologize for S. and I getting lazy for a little while with our posting. We thought the erotica would buy us some time. But judging by how our page views dropped dramatically, we shouldn't have taken time off. So to make up for it...
S. HAS NOW SEEN ME NAKED!!!! HOORAY!!!
The other night on Skype, we were having some fun (since our schedules had kept us away from intimacy for a little while) and I was in an adventurous mood, and so right before we got off and moved to the phone, I stood up and really slowly pulled down my pants. Then I stroked my cock (which was hard by now) and fondled my balls some. I also turned sideways to show her how long it was. I've recently gained some width, which is always fun! Now, if you were to look at it straight on, it's almost an oval shaped shaft. It's a bit different. Like, it's a big change. It's been round up until now. But now I wield a flat, wide cock. It even looks like it lost some thickness vertically and gained some horizontally. So I wanted to show it off!
I should be honest with you guys, it wasn't all the adventurous mood. I was raised in a VERY conservative household, where any physical interaction was considered taboo. They never addressed sex beyond the "birds and bees", and I never saw my parents be physically affectionate on a regular basis. They drilled it into my head that being physical with a girl was bad, PDA was bad, being turned on by a girl was bad, ect.
I've still been dealing with their conditioning. I have to suppress guilt about some activities S. and I do that I know are okay, and I still feel nervous about ANY PDA. Like, a hug in public? BOOM I'm nervous. And that's not okay.
I've managed to deal with it slightly. It's no longer a constant thing, and I'm working with S. to get rid of this guilt and nervousness entirely. I want to be able to have crazy intimate time with her. I want to get out of bed and see my spunk on her boobs and face and feel awesome, not guilty! If the day ever comes, I want to be able to open the door and let some cute girl in to watch S. and I go at it and her masturbate and feel like a million bucks! I want to fuck S. in every way I want! I want to fantasize about any crazy thing I want to in the shower and not feel bad! I wanna have crazy sex and PDA and have fun and not feel unnecessary guilt. I want to do what I want, be independent with S., and fulfill our desires!
So when we were on Skype, I thought "If I didn't feel any guilt, what would I do right now?"
And the answer was to show her my new cock!
So I did. And it ROCKED. She was totally lust drunk the whole night! She loved seeing it and watching me pleasure myself! And the look in her eyes made me want to keep doing it! I love having that confidence, and I'm hoping to channel that confident energy into the rest of our love life to purge all my feelings of guilt or nervousness.
More tomorrow!
-A.
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