Before I realized that I was bisexual, I didn't understand A.'s fascination with breasts! They're just squishy, and round. Like a balloon? Yeah, that's it. Like a balloon. So why is he so attracted to them? A. told me about how my boobs aren't just squishy and round. He told me mine were "like perfect teardrops" and "so incredibly soft..." I didn't understand! I gave up, and thought i would never be able to understand.... He actually told me that when he was little, he and his friends used to talk about what boobs felt like, and Austin had come to the conclusion that they felt like a water balloon filled with warm water. Now he says they're much more wonderful than that.
Then, I realized i was bisexual. And that I had been bisexual for a long time!!!! My first time I remember being really attracted to a girl, I was in the third grade. The first time i remember being turned on by a girl, I was in 5th grade. It was my best girl friend... She had long, gorgeous, straight dark brown hair. Bright green eyes. Cute freckles sprinkling her nose, and underneath her eyes. Beautiful 32 C cup breasts.
She was gorgeous. End of story.
I thought that it was a phase that I was attracted to her. You know, a lot of people have "crushes" on the same sex. So I ignored it, and tried to forget about it. It was just another part of growing up, right? Wrong. I noticed girls a lot more as a got older. I would think in the passing about how pretty that girl is, or how cute that girl is. It confused me.
When I actually recognized that I was bisexual, and I accepted it, I realized that breasts were beautiful! They really are soft, and supple, and so incredibly hot! I like girls! I like boobs, and girls butts, and their eyes, and how tender they are with each other! I love how they can be so rough, and sexy, and they have that attitude! They know just what to do to each other! Girls understand the emotional need much more than guys do, and they understand that intimacy doesn't just begin in the bedroom for a girl. This is new! How do I adjust? How does A. adjust? I knew that A. would eventually adjust, and that he would like it, and think it was hot. But i knew that he would never try and pressure me into doing things with another girl. But how would I adjust? I don't know...
Eventually, A. and I came up with ways... I would tell him what was attractive about girls to me. Show him pictures of girls I thought were attractive. We would add in girls to our daydreams(other than my "girls").
No matter how hard it was for me to believe, even I adjusted! It confused me... Why would A. accept this new part of me? We've been together for such a long time! How could he accept this random, new part of me? Why?
I finally asked him, one late night. He told me that it was beautiful. That it was part of me, so automatically he fell in love with it, because it was a defining thing about me. Of course, A. and I have kind of fallen out of having bisexual fantasies with one another as we've grown sexually. Our sex lives have taken a dip very recently because of stress in our lives, time and schedules. I want to bring it back. That has always been such an important thing to us. Soon, we will be starting a podcast to talk about sex and relationships, and we'll post it on our page. I'm so excited to share this awesome news, and I really hope all of our wonderful readers will like it! And now you'll get to put voices to the names.
Until next time...
-S.
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