Not too long ago I had a dream. A very good dream. A VERY VERY VERY good dream. It involved S., one of her friends that she classifies as very attractive (and who at one point she informed me of every detail of her body to see if I would want to titty fuck her) and Autumn. And they were all engaging in lots of sexy activities like grabbing each others breasts, humping each others chests, grinding, and making out. All this in a hot tub outside at night. It was dirty, it was sexy, it was absolutely AMAZING!!!
Now this might seem like something minor for a lot of you. But here's the kicker: I woke up happy about having it. This is a huge step for me!
See, a year or two ago, I would have woken up feeling ashamed. I thought sexual fantasies, especially vivid lusty ones where bad and wrong. They seemed dirty (in a bad way, not in the OH SO GOOD way). I felt shame and guilt and would suppress my thoughts about it. I thought they made me a bad person because they might not just involve S. (this was before she told me she was bisexual, so it really felt wrong!). I often had fantasies about her at sleepovers with other girls experimenting (still a favorite fantasy of mine today). My thoughts were conflicting, creating a huge internal conflict that stifled my fantasy life for a long time.
Then I listened to Sex is Fun, where fantasies run rampant! I definitely laughed out loud on my treadmill when one of the hosts talked about how she would love it if Matt Damon and his twin brother both came in and dominated her. Another host frequently talked about vivid fantasies involving him being dominated by older, smart women, hot threesomes, crazy sexual encounters, fantasies about women in the 1800s, and having sex with women other than his wife. I slowly discovered that these people led healthy professional, personal, and sexual lives while having vivid crazy fantasy lives that indulged their every whim.
So I decided to try it out. For one week about a year ago, I let my imagination go wild. Threesome with hot girls who all slid all over my body and onto my cock with wild abandon? Check. S. making out with four other girls while she videotaped it for me? Check. Me fucking S. on a public beach with two young innocent girls watching, wide eyed? Check. S. being tied up and dominated by another girl? Check. I had an insane week. Literally, I left nothing off limits. S.'s friends and my friends were fair game. If they popped up in the fantasy they stayed. I left nothing to the imagination either. I filled in every detail I could, from the sounds of wet pussies on my cock to the wet smack of girl-on-girl kissing (yes, I'm into the lesbo action. I'm proud of admitting it now that I'm comfortable with fantasies. See what fantasies can do for your confidence?).
Then, it just kind of stuck. I realized that having a fantasy did not change me at all, and gave me more release and even better ideas for what to do for S. and I! I was more inspired and turned on for her than ever! I found that even when I let whomever into the fantasy, all it did was make me want S. more. It gave me great edge-play fodder and improved our love life.
There are a few fantasies I cannot condone on here. Anything involving bodily harm (even temporary), breath play, bestiality, and anything involving underage individuals I can't encourage on here, either to protect you physically or legally. There are other fantasies out there. Just because one thing turns you on doesn't mean it has to be the only thing to give you pleasure. Try finding some safer (and more legal) alternatives and try them out! You might just like it! A good sexual life should always involve variety. Bad sex lives fall into the "rut" of doing one thing over and over.
Open your mind up to whatever fantasies you want! Have a fun, wet-dream filled night!
-A.
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